Officially a senior in high school now! I honestly can’t believe it.
It’s exciting but scary too. When I was little I would always tell my parents stuff like “I’m never going to grow up,” and “I don’t want to leave home.” Now that it’s the last year of my childhood and some big decisions about my future lie ahead, I feel like a little kid again struggling with this fear of change.
I really need to decide what career I want to pursue. I know I want to major in Biblical Studies, but I don’t think that’s the only thing I should do. I don’t know what that something else should be though. I’m not tough enough for the political world, I don’t really want to teach, and I don’t feel I belong in business either. And looking at the statistics of my top college choice (Wheaton in IL), I fear that I won’t be accepted. This isn’t because my grades were bad, but because I didn’t push myself hard enough. I didn’t take any APs in 9th, 10th, or 11th grade, I don’t meet the language requirements, and my SAT scores aren’t in the mid 2000s (they were close though, so perhaps I could’ve made it if I studied). All I can do is apply and hope my extracirriculars will make up for my academic shortcomings. I want it so badly that I know I’ll be crushed if I don’t make it, but I will do my best to trust that there was a reason why I made the choices I did. Please pray that God would let His will be made clear to me and that I would embrace it graciously even if it doesn’t match mine- it would mean a lot!
On a brighter note, I am very thankful that God helped me through the low points of this year. I got through Chemistry, Physics, and Calculus without getting any C’s on my transcript :) And best of all, it’s summer now and I’m going to Europe in 1 month!!! This summer is going to be special, and stress aside, I look am really looking forward to next year. It’s our time Class of 2013, let’s make it awesome. I know we’ll get through :)